PATIENCE TESTED

Leaving home without praying is indeed something. Don't really remember the last time I felt this way. Well, I'm actually quite capable of recalling that day, but don't really remember the day. Anyway, I was so sleepy also and was kind of half-hearted to teach these two kids. I came there, trying to give the lesson to them, but as always, they wasted time. I was so heated inside, especially when the lil boy didn't want to do the composition seriously. His low interest in English, or language to be exact, is so frustrating. I lost counts of how many times I yawned. I almost snapped.

It was quite painful to hold the anger inside. I do want to get angry to my students as easily as how I used to. It seems so long ago. I've been trying to control this anger actually, but there are still times when I just snap. The last time I snapped, I got fired embarrassingly. Well, it's another story, tho. The point is tho I snap satanically, my day is ruined and others, I quizzically always feel guilty to them and I always wonder why I should feel that way. I'm paid to get them good scores in English, so when they show a trace of laziness, why can't I just snap? Why should giving lessons at home be any different to teachers giving lessons at school? Why can school teachers yell at their students while I should not?

*heavysigh*